My brain surgeon’s office was two states away, so I recovered in my own bed back home in Montana. With all that had happened in the last few weeks, I truly believed God had done something very special for me. Still, each morning I staved off the panic attacks that[…]

Lying in bed at home after brain surgery gave me plenty of time to think and reflect. For most of my life,  it seemed I had been running from something. At times I felt I could draw a breath and skate awhile, then something would happen that would[…]

The day following brain surgery, I continued to take stock of my condition. I had lost all hearing in my left ear. My left eyeball was catawampus…with the pupil turned toward my nose. I saw two of everything unless I closed one eye. I could still hear my[…]

There was a reason I believed I was experiencing a bona fide miracle when I awoke from the brain surgery. Before my diagnosis, a friend of mine had sent me a writing she had penned long ago. She sent it because I was going to have a surgery on my[…]

In my last blog post titled Brain Salad Surgery, I told you that something unexpected happened after I became addicted to, and subsequently “cold turkey’d” Oxycontin pain medication. I was in excruciating pain every waking minute of  every day. I didn’t think I could take much more. I often[…]

It was almost three o’clock in the afternoon before my eyes fluttered quickly, then opened. The artificial light in the intensive care unit at Brotman Medical Center in Culver City glared back at me. Disoriented,  I squinted up from the hospital bed. A smile backlit a face that[…]

Debbie Reynolds (I added this on 12/29…after losing her daughter Carrie Fisher, Debbie told her son Todd she missed her and then she died herself). Ricky Harris (comedian) – 54 Carrie Fisher – 60 George Michael – 53 Zsa Zsa Gabor – 99 (her stepson died due to[…]

When I awoke from brain surgery on October 16, 2006, I could hear my breath twice for each one breath I drew.  And it was loud, like the roaring of a waterfall. The first time I heard it, I was actually taking a breath. A couple of seconds[…]

  I’ve been irritable lately. Really Irritable. I have disliked the way I have felt, and how I have reacted to life’s little “irritations.” I have felt dry. Used up. The joy has been missing, and at times, I have feared it would never return. I think about[…]

When you forget God is near.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the feeling of vulnerability that has increased since I have become more disabled due to a broken neck and two brain surgeries. This has made me think of others with similar experiences, and I’ve wondered how they cope. I’m still in a state of[…]